| 106 | Sunshine through my window |
| 107 | That's what you are |
| 108 | My shining star |
| (0, 1) 112 | Sometimes I wish some people would just fuck off. |
| (0, 1) 113 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 114 | Like seriously. |
| (0, 1) 115 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 116 | Just. fuck. off. |
| (0, 1) 117 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 118 | Looking at me with their judgemental looks and raised eyebrows. |
| (0, 1) 119 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 120 | Their stares. |
| (0, 1) 121 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 122 | Judging me. |
| (0, 1) 123 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 124 | Making up stories in their heads about who I am and what I'm doing. |
| (0, 1) 125 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 126 | Turning their noses up and acting like they're better than me. |
| (0, 1) 127 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 128 | Because why? they got nice tidy clothes and a warm house and a car. |
| (0, 1) 129 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 130 | Bollocks. |
| (0, 1) 131 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 132 | They haven't got a clue. |
| (0, 1) 133 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 134 | They just pass me by as if I'm not there in my cardboard palace in the |
| (0, 1) 135 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 136 | kingdom of high street. |
| (0, 1) 137 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 138 | Don't even give me a first look, let alone a second. |
| (0, 1) 139 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 140 | No recollection |
| (0, 1) 141 | Acknowledgment |
| (0, 1) 142 | Or care. |
| (0, 1) 143 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 144 | Nothing. |
| (0, 1) 145 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 146 | Hundreds of different characters every single day. |
| (0, 1) 147 | And still nothing. |
| (0, 1) 148 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 149 | Blazin arguments |
| (0, 1) 150 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 151 | Fighting |
| (0, 1) 152 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 153 | Kissing |
| (0, 1) 154 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 155 | Stealing |
| (0, 1) 156 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 157 | It all goes down here. |
| (0, 1) 158 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 159 | All these stories. |
| (0, 1) 160 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 161 | Get told in good ole Newport Town |
| (0, 1) 162 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 163 | or City. |
| (0, 1) 164 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 165 | Whichever way you wanna look at it. |
| (0, 1) 166 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 167 | And it's those stories that make us the characters that we are. |
| (0, 1) 169 | See me right. |
| (0, 1) 170 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 171 | I'm more polite than most with my philosophy in life being I'll treat you the way you treat me. |
| (0, 1) 172 | So if you give me the time of day, I'll give it back. |
| (0, 1) 173 | You're nice to me, I'm nice back |
| (0, 1) 174 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 175 | Learnt that from my nan |
| (0, 1) 176 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 177 | And do I ever take things for granted? |
| (0, 1) 178 | Hell no. |
| (0, 1) 179 | You can't afford to. |
| (0, 1) 180 | Not in this life. |
| (0, 1) 181 | Not in my life. |
| (0, 1) 182 | Because everything happens for a reason. |
| (0, 1) 183 | I truly believe that. |
| (0, 1) 184 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 185 | Now most days are the same. |
| (0, 1) 186 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 187 | Same routine pretty much. |
| (0, 1) 188 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 189 | Day in and day out. |
| (0, 1) 190 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 191 | But today, |
| (0, 1) 192 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 193 | Today is different. |
| (0, 1) 194 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 195 | Today's THE day. |
| (0, 1) 196 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 197 | Day 56. |
| (0, 1) 198 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 199 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 200 | I wakes up about 6am |
| (0, 1) 201 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 202 | Freezing my tits off |
| (0, 1) 203 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 204 | Lips slightly blue |
| (0, 1) 205 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 206 | My breath showing in the cold air with every exhale |
| (0, 1) 207 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 208 | I gets dressed and chucks an extra layer on for safe keeping because we got some tail end of some hurricane is coming in tonight. |
| (0, 1) 209 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 210 | Grabs my JD bag and wonders down to Greggs in Friars for the early morning commuters to Bristol and Cardiff. |
| (0, 1) 211 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 212 | Great bunch to be fair. |
| (0, 1) 213 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 214 | We're on a first name basis. |
| (0, 1) 215 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 216 | Jennifer, Harry and Olivia. |
| (0, 1) 217 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 218 | Sweethearts. |
| (0, 1) 219 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 220 | They're my regulars. |
| (0, 1) 221 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 222 | Always gets me a breakfast meal deal. |
| (0, 1) 223 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 224 | Every day without hesitation. |
| (0, 1) 225 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 226 | And every morning one of them will ask me what my plans for the day are. |
| (0, 1) 227 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 228 | They get the same response |
| (0, 1) 229 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 230 | Same old same old y'know. |
| (0, 1) 231 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 232 | Same shit different day I goes |
| (0, 1) 233 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 234 | But today IS different |
| (0, 1) 235 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 236 | I goes |
| (0, 1) 237 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 238 | Today is the the day I find out if y'know… |
| (0, 1) 239 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 240 | They all smile and wish me the best of luck. |
| (0, 1) 241 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 242 | You'll be fine Jo, Olivia says |
| (0, 1) 243 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 244 | As she hands me a Bacon roll with ketchup and a black coffee. |
| (0, 1) 245 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 246 | Same time tomorrow |
| (0, 1) 247 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 248 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 249 | I eat that and glug the coffee to wash it down as I wander back through commercial street to the drop in centre for a shower. |
| (0, 1) 250 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 251 | Each morning I'm there without a doubt. |
| (0, 1) 252 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 253 | I walks through the door and Dave who runs the centre hands me a large towel and a small one for my hair. |
| (0, 1) 254 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 255 | Heart of gold Dave has. |
| (0, 1) 256 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 257 | He laughs because he knows what I'm here for. |
| (0, 1) 258 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 259 | Not a day goes by that he won't see me. |
| (0, 1) 260 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 261 | Put the kettle on I tells him as I dart into the cubicle and start running the water. |
| (0, 1) 262 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 263 | Already beat you to it Jo, he yells in after me. |
| (0, 1) 264 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 265 | After drying myself off I reemerge and Dave's already got a coffee waiting for me with my name on it. |
| (0, 1) 266 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 267 | Starbucks meets Lidl. |
| (0, 1) 268 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 269 | And I love it. |
| (0, 1) 270 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 271 | Chocolate digestives and all. |
| (0, 1) 272 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 273 | Every single day for the past year or so he's made the exact same cuppa. |
| (0, 1) 274 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 275 | He knows just how I like it. |
| (0, 1) 276 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 277 | Two extra sugars and as soon as my hand grabs the handle of the mug Dave goes without fail |
| (0, 1) 278 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 279 | You don't need all that sugar Jo. You're sweet enough as it is. |
| (0, 1) 280 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 281 | I says yeah well I gotta remain this sweet somehow haven't I |
| (0, 1) 282 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 283 | He just chuckles |
| (0, 1) 284 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 285 | Asks me how the day before was, as per usual. |
| (0, 1) 286 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 287 | How much I made and what not, as per usual. |
| (0, 1) 288 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 289 | Just a nice chat and a cuppa. |
| (0, 1) 290 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 291 | It's nice. |
| (0, 1) 292 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 293 | To be acknowledged. |
| (0, 1) 295 | How you feeling? he says as he slurps his weak as piss cup of tea |
| (0, 1) 296 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 297 | About today and all |
| (0, 1) 298 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 299 | I dunno I goes |
| (0, 1) 300 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 301 | Weird I guess |
| (0, 1) 302 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 303 | I got these butterflies and that |
| (0, 1) 304 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 305 | But yeah |
| (0, 1) 306 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 307 | I dunno |
| (0, 1) 308 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 309 | Wait and see |
| (0, 1) 310 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 311 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 312 | Well the application was bang tidy so you got nothing to be nervous or worry about Dave says |
| (0, 1) 313 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 314 | He smiles, tells me We got this |
| (0, 1) 315 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 316 | I smile back |
| (0, 1) 317 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 318 | He says Now are you sure you don't want me to come with you? |
| (0, 1) 319 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 320 | I can just sit there |
| (0, 1) 321 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 322 | Dave I say |
| (0, 1) 323 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 324 | You got the centre to run. |
| (0, 1) 325 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 326 | There's more people that need you more than me |
| (0, 1) 327 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 328 | I'll be fine |
| (0, 1) 329 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 330 | I promise. |
| (0, 1) 332 | Just make sure you have the kettle on ready. |
| (0, 1) 333 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 334 | He giggles and says deal |
| (0, 1) 335 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 336 | Well I better shoot I tells him |
| (0, 1) 337 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 338 | Set up and everything before I head on down |
| (0, 1) 339 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 340 | I take a few biscuits and a packet of walkers Ready Salted. |
| (0, 1) 341 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 342 | Stuff them in my bag for safe keeping later. |
| (0, 1) 343 | ~ |
| (0, 1) 344 | He gives me a hug and says good luck but before he's blinked I'm away. |
| (0, 2) 345 | Down past the job centre and onto High Street |
| (0, 2) 346 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 347 | Turns left and I'm weaving through the stampede of early morning eager shoppers until I get to my tent and grab my stuff |
| (0, 2) 348 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 349 | I then drift over to my regular spot next to card factory setting up shop. |
| (0, 2) 350 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 351 | Theres even more now on these streets than ever before. |
| (0, 2) 352 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 353 | And day in and day out they're fighting over where to set up their pitches and their tents and what doorways to take shelter under. |
| (0, 2) 354 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 355 | But I try as best I can to stay well out of those politics |
| (0, 2) 356 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 357 | Just keeps myself to myself. |
| (0, 2) 358 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 359 | Easier that way. |
| (0, 2) 360 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 361 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 362 | This spot right here is MY spot. |
| (0, 2) 363 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 364 | That's why I set up so early. |
| (0, 2) 365 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 366 | So no fucker else nabs it. |
| (0, 2) 367 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 368 | Perfect spot if I say so myself as I'm smack bang at a junction of high street. |
| (0, 2) 369 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 370 | People coming from left, right and centre. |
| (0, 2) 371 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 372 | So I lay down my cardboard, dump my bag and set up shop before I head off down to the housing office. |
| (0, 2) 373 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 374 | Back through the kingdom of High Street passing the run down buildings and abandoned shops until I come to a stop outside the housing office. |
| (0, 2) 375 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 376 | Just looking at it from the outside makes the butterflies in my stomach suddenly go all crazy. |
| (0, 2) 377 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 378 | Flapping around all over the place. |
| (0, 2) 379 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 380 | And not in a nice first date kinda way where theres this excitement as to whats going to happen next. |
| (0, 2) 381 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 382 | It's in a crushing way as if the butterflies are trying to destroy me from the |
| (0, 2) 383 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 384 | inside out. |
| (0, 2) 386 | I push open the door after my first attempt at pulling fails. |
| (0, 2) 387 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 388 | Walks in and goes straight over to reception |
| (0, 2) 389 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 390 | Much to the stares of the people sat down waiting. |
| (0, 2) 391 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 392 | The same stares and whispers I've become accustomed to. |
| (0, 2) 393 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 394 | Joanne Chapman I say to the lady behind the desk who looks like she's pain'ted her face on in an early morning rush at 7am. |
| (0, 2) 395 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 396 | I got a nine o clock appointment. |
| (0, 2) 397 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 398 | The lady behind the desk, snobby cow she is, just hands me a ticket stub and says in a dismissive way |
| (0, 2) 399 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 400 | ßTake a seatß |
| (0, 2) 401 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 402 | So I do |
| (0, 2) 403 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 404 | I sits there with stub number 8 in my hand waiting for my number to be called. |
| (0, 2) 405 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 406 | Number 6 please |
| (0, 2) 407 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 408 | Looking around at the people in the waiting area and everyones avoiding eye contact. |
| (0, 2) 409 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 410 | As soon as I look their way their eyes shoot for the ground. |
| (0, 2) 411 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 412 | I softly smile at the guy opposite me. |
| (0, 2) 413 | Trendy looking guy with cool white Nikes and beautiful blue eyes. |
| (0, 2) 414 | He's having none of it though. |
| (0, 2) 415 | Straight to his phone screen his eyes shoot. |
| (0, 2) 416 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 417 | And although I may not hear the whispers of the others I still see them. |
| (0, 2) 418 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 419 | In their faces. |
| (0, 2) 420 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 421 | Judgement and ignorance. |
| (0, 2) 422 | It's a toxic mix. |
| (0, 2) 423 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 424 | But whatever. |
| (0, 2) 425 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 426 | Fuck it. |
| (0, 2) 428 | I remain quiet. |
| (0, 2) 429 | Sitting there |
| (0, 2) 430 | In my own world |
| (0, 2) 431 | Minding my own business |
| (0, 2) 432 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 433 | Just waiting and waiting |
| (0, 2) 434 | For what seems like a lifetime. |
| (0, 2) 435 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 436 | A few looks I can catch out the corner of my eye |
| (0, 2) 437 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 438 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 439 | Looking at what you're doing. |
| (0, 2) 440 | Looking at their possessions. |
| (0, 2) 441 | Creating stories in their heads. |
| (0, 2) 442 | About who I am. |
| (0, 2) 443 | Why I'm here. |
| (0, 2) 444 | How I got here. |
| (0, 2) 446 | I'm up. |
| (0, 2) 447 | Straight in the booth. |
| (0, 2) 448 | Greeted by Mark as his name badge tells me |
| (0, 2) 449 | He quickly begins with |
| (0, 2) 450 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 451 | ßMorning Miss Chapmanß |
| (0, 2) 452 | ßI'm/ß |
| (0, 2) 453 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 454 | /Let me stop you there Mark |
| (0, 2) 455 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 456 | Before we start I just want to say that I'm not one of those fussy fuckers alright. |
| (0, 2) 457 | I'll go anywhere in Newport |
| (0, 2) 458 | House or flat mind |
| (0, 2) 459 | I don't care what place in Newport I get today like, as long as I got a roof over my head and I got a place I can call home |
| (0, 2) 460 | Then I'm happy |
| (0, 2) 461 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 462 | Mark just stares at me |
| (0, 2) 463 | A blank stare |
| (0, 2) 464 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 465 | Right into my soul |
| (0, 2) 466 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 467 | Exhales with a real huff |
| (0, 2) 468 | Shuffles his papers a bit |
| (0, 2) 469 | And says |
| (0, 2) 470 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 471 | ßI'm really sorry Miss Chapman but after a review of your application the housing office have deemed you non priority for immediate rehousingß |
| (0, 2) 472 | ßOn this occasion you won't be rehoused in permanent accommodation in Newport/ß |
| (0, 2) 473 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 474 | /I'm sorry what? |
| (0, 2) 475 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 476 | ßI understand this will mark the end of the 56 day duty of care we have to house you.ß |
| (0, 2) 477 | ßBUT I can give you information on new housing options in LEICESTER if you're interested/ß |
| (0, 2) 478 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 479 | What do you mean Leicester? |
| (0, 2) 480 | Is this a joke? |
| (0, 2) 481 | ßI'm afraid not Miss Chapman/ß |
| (0, 2) 482 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 483 | /So what now? My 56 days are up so I'm just on my own? just gotta stay on the streets? |
| (0, 2) 484 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 485 | ßI'm afraid so but please do consider the option of Leicester. Your application was indeed strong and we understand you were unintentionally made homeless but there were more priority applican'ts during this/ß |
| (0, 2) 486 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 487 | /So what makes me priority then? |
| (0, 2) 488 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 489 | ßUm well diagnosed mental health issues, physical impairments, pregnancy/ß |
| (0, 2) 490 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 491 | /What? So if I go and get myself knocked up I can get a house is what you're saying |
| (0, 2) 492 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 493 | … |
| (0, 2) 494 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 495 | Well it is isn't it |
| (0, 2) 496 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 497 | That or flipping Leicester is the next best option? |
| (0, 2) 498 | That's pretty much what you're saying to me |
| (0, 2) 499 | Isn't it |
| (0, 2) 500 | Football and Cheese |
| (0, 2) 501 | Great |
| (0, 2) 502 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 503 | I can't just leave and go to pissing Leicester. |
| (0, 2) 504 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 505 | ßIf you could please calm down miss/ß |
| (0, 2) 506 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 507 | /NO I won't calm down. |
| (0, 2) 508 | You're literally telling me I'm not good enough |
| (0, 2) 509 | Not worthy enough of a home. |
| (0, 2) 510 | A house of my own. |
| (0, 2) 511 | In my own hometown. |
| (0, 2) 512 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 513 | ßNo Miss Chapman. We're not saying that.ß |
| (0, 2) 514 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 515 | So what are you saying then!? |
| (0, 2) 516 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 517 | ßJust on this occasion you were unsuccessful.ß |
| (0, 2) 518 | ßThere are opportunities in Leicester thoughß |
| (0, 2) 519 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 520 | It's besides the point I can't just leave to go to Leicester |
| (0, 2) 521 | Would you just up and leave? |
| (0, 2) 522 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 523 | ßIt would only be temporaryß |
| (0, 2) 524 | ßSo you would just have to re-apply when new housing becomes available here.ß |
| (0, 2) 525 | ßYou can always reapply.ß |
| (0, 2) 526 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 527 | Reapply? |
| (0, 2) 528 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 529 | Do you know how long it took me and the support guys to do this application!? |
| (0, 2) 530 | How far away Leicester is? |
| (0, 2) 531 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 532 | No |
| (0, 2) 533 | I'm not doing another application. |
| (0, 2) 534 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 535 | ßIf you would please lower your voice?ß |
| (0, 2) 536 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 537 | No I won't fucking lower my voice |
| (0, 2) 538 | It's fine for you with your cushty job, secure wages and your house you get to go home to. |
| (0, 2) 539 | What about me though? |
| (0, 2) 540 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 541 | And its at this point that Mark tosses a glance over to the jacked up security guard with no neck for help. |
| (0, 2) 542 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 543 | And before I know it I got a 6ft top heavy sloth who clearly skips leg day at the gym breathing down my neck |
| (0, 2) 544 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 545 | Pointing to the sign attached to the booth |
| (0, 2) 546 | As a warning of sorts |
| (0, 2) 547 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 548 | Abuse is NOT part of the job |
| (0, 2) 549 | Our staff will not tolerate abuse. |
| (0, 2) 550 | Any abusive behaviour will be dealt with accordingly |
| (0, 2) 551 | I just glance at the meat head beside me |
| (0, 2) 552 | Look him up and down |
| (0, 2) 553 | And I goes |
| (0, 2) 554 | Go and have another protein shake mate |
| (0, 2) 555 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 556 | But before I can continue my conversation with Mark |
| (0, 2) 557 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 558 | The security guard grabs my arm and I jolt up out of the chair like I've had an electric shock. |
| (0, 2) 559 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 560 | I say |
| (0, 2) 561 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 562 | Dont touch me |
| (0, 2) 563 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 564 | Don't you put your fucking hands on me mate |
| (0, 2) 565 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 566 | He says ßmadam calm down, you'll have to come with meß |
| (0, 2) 567 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 568 | I don't HAVE to go anywhere I say I haven't finished my conversation yet so back off yeah |
| (0, 2) 569 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 570 | And the energy in the room is weird |
| (0, 2) 571 | As so many people are doing the usual darting their eyes to the ground or keeping their eyes transfixed on their phone screens. |
| (0, 2) 572 | On whatever game they're playing or article they're reading. |
| (0, 2) 573 | Anything BUT to look at what's going on. |
| (0, 2) 574 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 575 | Mr Nike sat there laughing, discreetly trying to record the commotion that's going on on his phone. |
| (0, 2) 576 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 577 | The security guard is edging closer |
| (0, 2) 578 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 579 | ßI'll have to escort you outsideß |
| (0, 2) 580 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 581 | I goes will you fuck |
| (0, 2) 582 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 583 | I wanna know from Mark why I'm not good enough for a house |
| (0, 2) 584 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 585 | Why I'm not priority |
| (0, 2) 586 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 587 | But Mark is just sat there fiddling with papers, trying his absolute best not to say anything. |
| (0, 2) 588 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 589 | The security guard lunges towards me |
| (0, 2) 590 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 591 | I'm screaming |
| (0, 2) 592 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 593 | Get your grubby hands off me |
| (0, 2) 594 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 595 | Don't you fucking touch me |
| (0, 2) 596 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 597 | I'll bring this whole fucking place to the ground yeah |
| (0, 2) 598 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 599 | And some fat old lady in the waiting area pipes up and snaps |
| (0, 2) 600 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 601 | ßWill you watch your language. I have kids here.ß |
| (0, 2) 602 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 603 | Uh are you shitting me? I goes to her |
| (0, 2) 604 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 605 | You really think I give a fuck how you feel about my language? |
| (0, 2) 606 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 607 | How any of you feel? |
| (0, 2) 608 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 609 | And some of the eyes start peering up from the phones to see this action |
| (0, 2) 610 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 611 | To each and everyone of you who are sat there making comments in your minds, passing judgement on my language and the way I go about my life this {Jo sticks up her middle finger} right here is for you. |
| (0, 2) 612 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 613 | Yeah you see someone like me with some scruffy clothes on and a little bit of bad language and straight away you think oh what a foul mouthed drunk. |
| (0, 2) 614 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 615 | What a bum. |
| (0, 2) 616 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 617 | Well screw you all. |
| (0, 2) 618 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 619 | You don't know shit about what I'm going through |
| (0, 2) 620 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 621 | What I've been through |
| (0, 2) 622 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 623 | I'm a human being |
| (0, 2) 624 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 625 | Just like all of you. |
| (0, 2) 626 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 627 | So go ahead. |
| (0, 2) 628 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 629 | Judge. |
| (0, 2) 630 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 631 | Make comments and tell me to mind my language. |
| (0, 2) 632 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 633 | But take a long hard look in the mirror before you do yeah. |
| (0, 2) 635 | ßOh just get her out of hereß The fat lady screeches |
| (0, 2) 636 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 637 | The security guard begins to charge and tackle |
| (0, 2) 638 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 639 | Grabs my arm |
| (0, 2) 640 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 641 | I starts kicking over chairs |
| (0, 2) 642 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 643 | Screaming in his face |
| (0, 2) 644 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 645 | You juiced up prick. |
| (0, 2) 646 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 647 | Wanker. |
| (0, 2) 648 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 649 | But he's got a grip so tight on my arm |
| (0, 2) 650 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 651 | My circulation is getting cut off as he's dragging me through the housing centre |
| (0, 2) 652 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 653 | To the double doors. |
| (0, 2) 654 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 655 | He opens them and tosses me out. |
| (0, 2) 656 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 657 | Straight to the ground. |
| (0, 2) 658 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 659 | Like he's taking out the rubbish. |
| (0, 2) 660 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 661 | Throws my bag next to me. |
| (0, 2) 663 | Oh I bet you think you're a real hard man |
| (0, 2) 664 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 665 | He just looks at me. |
| (0, 2) 667 | Help me. |
| (0, 2) 668 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 669 | I say to him. |
| (0, 2) 670 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 671 | Please. |
| (0, 2) 672 | ~ |
| (0, 2) 673 | But the doors already shut in my face. |
| (0, 2) 675 | Prick |
| (0, 3) 676 | I brush myself off and get my shit together |
| (0, 3) 678 | Cars are slowing down by the lights to see what commotion has just happened |
| (0, 3) 679 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 680 | Another morning in Newport I yell |
| (0, 3) 681 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 682 | I go to re-enter |
| (0, 3) 683 | Get proper answers like |
| (0, 3) 684 | But as I look through the door I can already see the receptionist and Mr Juice-head on the phone whilst they're staring at me. |
| (0, 3) 685 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 686 | To see what I'm doing |
| (0, 3) 687 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 688 | Fuck this |
| (0, 3) 689 | AND FUCK YOU |
| (0, 3) 690 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 691 | I'm off |
| (0, 3) 692 | Strolling across the road to the sound of beeps |
| (0, 3) 693 | past Courtyard and down towards Tesco. |
| (0, 3) 694 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 695 | The buildings and shops |
| (0, 3) 696 | The history |
| (0, 3) 697 | Taking it all in. |
| (0, 3) 698 | The memories |
| (0, 3) 699 | The stories behind them all |
| (0, 3) 700 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 701 | Steals a fag off the Tesco employees on break outside. |
| (0, 3) 702 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 703 | Puffing away I go round the corner and onto high street. |
| (0, 3) 704 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 705 | Wandering through the crowd towards my pitch |
| (0, 3) 706 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 707 | I get to my pitch and look at it in its glory |
| (0, 3) 708 | Triumphant as it stands there proud |
| (0, 3) 709 | My business |
| (0, 3) 710 | My pitch |
| (0, 3) 712 | I grab a handful of loom bands and start throwing them into the crowd of passer by's |
| (0, 3) 713 | Take a loom band I yell out |
| (0, 3) 714 | Give a loom band to a loved one |
| (0, 3) 715 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 716 | And anyone would think I have the plague as people are actively avoiding me as I'm dispersing of my looms |
| (0, 3) 717 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 718 | Chasing people down high street |
| (0, 3) 719 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 720 | Here please take one. |
| (0, 3) 721 | Honestly no charge |
| (0, 3) 722 | Just have it |
| (0, 3) 723 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 724 | Two old ladies with their trolleys outside poundland take a handful of looms off me and tell me to have a lovely day |
| (0, 3) 725 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 726 | And no sooner am I back to get more and I have a very smartly dressed gent with a poor excuse for a beard peering his eyes over me |
| (0, 3) 727 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 728 | I recognise him instantly |
| (0, 3) 729 | He's part of this club |
| (0, 3) 730 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 731 | The vultures I call them |
| (0, 3) 732 | Out here doing the councils dirty work |
| (0, 3) 733 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 734 | ßExcuse me missß he chirps up with |
| (0, 3) 735 | ßI'm going to have to ask you to pack this awayß |
| (0, 3) 736 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 737 | Whose asking? |
| (0, 3) 738 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 739 | ßChris.ß |
| (0, 3) 740 | ßCommunity Support Officer.ß |
| (0, 3) 741 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 742 | And he flashes his badge to me like a shit version of a wannabe police officer. |
| (0, 3) 744 | Right |
| (0, 3) 745 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 746 | ßI'm going to have to ask you/ß |
| (0, 3) 747 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 748 | /Yeah I heard you the first time. |
| (0, 3) 749 | Why have I got to pack this away? |
| (0, 3) 750 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 751 | ßWell you're disturbing the peace with your current actionsß |
| (0, 3) 752 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 753 | Ha |
| (0, 3) 754 | Very funny |
| (0, 3) 755 | They're just loom bands |
| (0, 3) 756 | No trouble |
| (0, 3) 757 | Could be worse like |
| (0, 3) 758 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 759 | ßEven so I can't allow you to carry onß |
| (0, 3) 760 | ßgiven that you are within ten meters of that ATM over thereß |
| (0, 3) 761 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 762 | Chris don't take the piss ok |
| (0, 3) 763 | I've had a really shit morning and I was just getting rid of my bands |
| (0, 3) 764 | Really wasn't hurting anyone |
| (0, 3) 765 | Christ I could be drunk and disorderly at 11 in the morning |
| (0, 3) 766 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 767 | ßUnder the Anti-Social Behaviour, Crime and Policing Act 2014ß |
| (0, 3) 768 | ßI am now issuing you with a Public Space Protection Order/ß |
| (0, 3) 769 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 770 | /What? |
| (0, 3) 771 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 772 | ßPlease don't interruptß |
| (0, 3) 773 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 774 | But what's a Public Space Thingy Magiggy? |
| (0, 3) 775 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 776 | ßAll the information is on the back of your orderß |
| (0, 3) 778 | Well you can take your bit of paper {Jo begins to rip it up} and shove it |
| (0, 3) 779 | I've done nothing wrong |
| (0, 3) 780 | You're going to write me up for giving out loom bands |
| (0, 3) 781 | Get a grip |
| (0, 3) 782 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 783 | ßI really wish you hadn't of done thatß |
| (0, 3) 784 | ßNon compliance results in immediate police actionß |
| (0, 3) 786 | Police action? |
| (0, 3) 787 | For ripping up some paper |
| (0, 3) 788 | Mate you see me around here all the time. |
| (0, 3) 789 | I've been here for ages |
| (0, 3) 790 | The loom band lady |
| (0, 3) 791 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 792 | ßYes.ß |
| (0, 3) 793 | ßBut we are clamping down on nuisances in the cityß |
| (0, 3) 794 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 795 | Nuisances? |
| (0, 3) 796 | Are you taking the piss? |
| (0, 3) 797 | I don't bother anyone |
| (0, 3) 799 | I mind my own business yeah |
| (0, 3) 800 | I'm not a nuisance |
| (0, 3) 802 | I make flipping loom bands for crying out loud |
| (0, 3) 804 | Just give me a break. |
| (0, 3) 805 | I'm working not begging. |
| (0, 3) 806 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 807 | He just looks at me and smugly giggles to himself |
| (0, 3) 808 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 809 | ßI don't make the rulesß |
| (0, 3) 810 | ßI simply follow them.ß |
| (0, 3) 811 | ßMaybe you should try it.ß |
| (0, 3) 812 | ßAnd then you wouldn't be in this predicamentß |
| (0, 3) 813 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 814 | Aw go and Fu/ |
| (0, 3) 815 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 816 | ß/You have until I finish my current rounds on high streetß |
| (0, 3) 817 | ßThen I will be backß |
| (0, 3) 818 | ßWith the authoritiesß |
| (0, 3) 819 | ßAnd I strongly advise that you not be here when i returnß |
| (0, 3) 820 | ßNow have a good day.ß |
| (0, 3) 821 | ßAnd clear away your pitchß |
| (0, 3) 822 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 823 | And like a dementor he slithers into the crowd of people passing through High Street to pick out another target. |
| (0, 3) 824 | To suck the life outta them. |
| (0, 3) 825 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 826 | Judge, jury and executioner. |
| (0, 3) 827 | ~ |
| (0, 3) 828 | I just let the pitch sit there for a moment. |
| (0, 3) 829 | In all its glory. |
| (0, 4) 834 | And suddenly I'm 12 years old back in the front of the car with nan |
| (0, 4) 835 | On our way to Barry Island. |
| (0, 4) 836 | Suns blazing |
| (0, 4) 837 | Windows down. |
| (0, 4) 838 | Gabrielle's on full blast |
| (0, 4) 841 | I'm not making plans for tomorrow |
| (0, 4) 842 | Let's live for tonight |
| (0, 4) 843 | I know you want me baby |
| (0, 4) 844 | So hold me so tight |
| (0, 4) 845 | Put your arms around me |
| (0, 4) 846 | You make me feel so safe |
| (0, 4) 847 | Then you whisper in my ear |
| (0, 4) 848 | That you're here to stay |
| (0, 4) 850 | Nan you're always gunna be here to stay ri(ght) |
| (0, 4) 851 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 852 | Of course I am sweetheart |
| (0, 4) 853 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 854 | Always and forever |
| (0, 4) 855 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 856 | Now here's a fiver |
| (0, 4) 857 | Hurry up before someone nabs our lucky machine |
| (0, 4) 858 | I'm right behind you. |
| (0, 4) 859 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 860 | Nan's off parking the car and paying for the display ticket |
| (0, 4) 861 | I'm gone. |
| (0, 4) 862 | She knows where to find me |
| (0, 4) 864 | Through the arcade doors |
| (0, 4) 865 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 866 | And up to the change machine |
| (0, 4) 867 | I pops the fiver in the machine and out pour 2ps |
| (0, 4) 868 | grab two tubs and wait as they fill up |
| (0, 4) 869 | I carry on straight to the 10p horse racers |
| (0, 4) 870 | Take a right and go to end and find the 2p machines. |
| (0, 4) 871 | The last but one nearest the window. |
| (0, 4) 872 | Our lucky machine. |
| (0, 4) 873 | You can give it a nudge or a little kick when the prize is hanging on the edge |
| (0, 4) 874 | Just to tip it over |
| (0, 4) 875 | And the alarms won't go off |
| (0, 4) 876 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 877 | 2p after 2p |
| (0, 4) 878 | I start |
| (0, 4) 879 | Watching as the prize crawls closer and closer towards the drop zone. |
| (0, 4) 880 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 881 | Nan places her hand on my shoulder How you getting on? she says gently |
| (0, 4) 882 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 883 | Not bad. |
| (0, 4) 884 | Theres that Minnie mouse keyring I'm aiming for. |
| (0, 4) 885 | It's got something attached to it. |
| (0, 4) 886 | Like two prizes in one. |
| (0, 4) 887 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 888 | She grabs the spare tub |
| (0, 4) 889 | Mine I take it? |
| (0, 4) 890 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 891 | Well yeah. |
| (0, 4) 892 | C'mon nan that keyring ain't gunna move itself |
| (0, 4) 893 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 894 | She giggles at me |
| (0, 4) 895 | Yes boss. |
| (0, 4) 896 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 897 | She starts popping 2p's in the machine as well |
| (0, 4) 898 | and Minnie starts nudging closer and closer |
| (0, 4) 899 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 900 | Almost there nan |
| (0, 4) 901 | We almost got it |
| (0, 4) 903 | How're you so good at this? |
| (0, 4) 904 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 905 | Well |
| (0, 4) 906 | I tell you this everytime |
| (0, 4) 907 | There's a trick |
| (0, 4) 908 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 909 | A trick? |
| (0, 4) 910 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 911 | Yeah. |
| (0, 4) 912 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 913 | Time and patience |
| (0, 4) 914 | As soon as the back starts coming forward |
| (0, 4) 915 | THEN you pop the 2p in |
| (0, 4) 916 | And it'll fall into the gap |
| (0, 4) 917 | And |
| (0, 4) 918 | Wallah |
| (0, 4) 920 | Now you try it? |
| (0, 4) 921 | Be patient |
| (0, 4) 922 | Good things come to those who wait remember |
| (0, 4) 923 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 924 | Yes nan |
| (0, 4) 925 | I remember |
| (0, 4) 926 | Like this? |
| (0, 4) 928 | Oh darling. |
| (0, 4) 929 | You're so close. |
| (0, 4) 930 | It's on the edge. |
| (0, 4) 931 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 932 | Shall I kick it? |
| (0, 4) 933 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 934 | Yeah. Go on. |
| (0, 4) 935 | No one's watching. |
| (0, 4) 936 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 937 | And as nan stands guard I give it a gentle boot |
| (0, 4) 938 | And down Minnie falls |
| (0, 4) 940 | Look nan |
| (0, 4) 941 | She's got bracelets attached. |
| (0, 4) 942 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 943 | Well aren't you lucky she says as she's getting her purse out |
| (0, 4) 944 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 945 | Yeah. |
| (0, 4) 946 | One for me and one for you. |
| (0, 4) 947 | Team effort after all. |
| (0, 4) 948 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 949 | I'm now buzzing because that's one of the first times I've won anything. |
| (0, 4) 950 | Sports day, Eisteddfod |
| (0, 4) 951 | Nothing. |
| (0, 4) 952 | And as we leave the arcade I give Nan her bracelet |
| (0, 4) 953 | A red and white one |
| (0, 4) 954 | We walk down the front and grab Fish and Chips. |
| (0, 4) 955 | Extra vinegar so theres a pool at the bottom of the cone. |
| (0, 4) 956 | The chips go all soggy. |
| (0, 4) 957 | Love that. |
| (0, 4) 958 | Ice cream for dessert with the sandy breeze blowing through my hair and the taste of the sea filling the air around me. |
| (0, 4) 959 | Can taste the sand in the ice cream |
| (0, 4) 960 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 961 | Nan |
| (0, 4) 962 | What d'you dream of? |
| (0, 4) 963 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 964 | That's random Jo |
| (0, 4) 965 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 966 | Well nah, y'know Gabrielle sings of dreams so |
| (0, 4) 967 | Just wondering what yours are like |
| (0, 4) 968 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 969 | Well |
| (0, 4) 970 | I dream of retiring and of you growing up and living for the moment |
| (0, 4) 971 | Making the most out of life |
| (0, 4) 972 | because we never know what's going to happen |
| (0, 4) 974 | You know how time is the most precious thing |
| (0, 4) 975 | You have to make the most out of life so that's my dream |
| (0, 4) 976 | That you live life to the fullest |
| (0, 4) 978 | And I'll still be wearing this band when I do. |
| (0, 4) 979 | Retire that is. |
| (0, 4) 980 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 981 | Well of course. |
| (0, 4) 982 | You can't ever take it off now. |
| (0, 4) 983 | We're stuck together. |
| (0, 4) 984 | Just you and me |
| (0, 4) 985 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 986 | I won't. |
| (0, 4) 987 | ~ |
| (0, 4) 988 | I promise. |
| (0, 4) 989 | But what about you? |
| (0, 4) 990 | What's your dreams? |
| (0, 5) 1060 | Sandra goes to get out her purse |
| (0, 5) 1061 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1062 | No charge I say |
| (0, 5) 1063 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1064 | She looks at me all puzzled |
| (0, 5) 1065 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1066 | Continuing to rummage through her purse for change. |
| (0, 5) 1067 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1068 | I remain adamant |
| (0, 5) 1069 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1070 | No charge |
| (0, 5) 1071 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1072 | It's not just the fact that I feel for her and her pain or that she took the time to talk to me. |
| (0, 5) 1073 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1074 | Treat me like everyone else. |
| (0, 5) 1075 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1076 | Like a person. |
| (0, 5) 1077 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1078 | A human being |
| (0, 5) 1079 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1080 | That's something to me that money can't buy. |
| (0, 5) 1081 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1082 | That's being genuine. |
| (0, 5) 1083 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1084 | Please Please Please she mutters |
| (0, 5) 1085 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1086 | Just take a little something |
| (0, 5) 1087 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1088 | I hold her hand and close it with the money still in her palm and say seriously |
| (0, 5) 1089 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1090 | no charge. |
| (0, 5) 1091 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1092 | They got to go anyway |
| (0, 5) 1093 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1094 | I hand her the loom bands and say |
| (0, 5) 1095 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1096 | Just always wear them and that way you'll all be connected through whatever shit is going on at the moment. |
| (0, 5) 1097 | You'll always be a part of each other. |
| (0, 5) 1098 | Forever and always. |
| (0, 5) 1099 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1100 | She takes the pink bands from me and says to me in a tender tone |
| (0, 5) 1101 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1102 | What's your name darling? |
| (0, 5) 1103 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1104 | Joanne I reply but my friends call me Jo |
| (0, 5) 1105 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1106 | Well Joanne she says as she's packing away her purse and her loom bands into her handbag |
| (0, 5) 1107 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1108 | Thank you |
| (0, 5) 1109 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1110 | I watch her disappear through High Street and think that's my good deed for the day done. |
| (0, 5) 1111 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1112 | I starts gathering up the rest of the bands into the carrier bag and packing away my stall. |
| (0, 5) 1113 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1114 | Folds my cardboard up and I'm away |
| (0, 5) 1115 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1116 | Back down High Street to drop my stuff off |
| (0, 5) 1117 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1118 | Gets to my tent and unzips her. |
| (0, 5) 1119 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1120 | Plonks my stuff straight in and I'm off again. |
| (0, 5) 1121 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1122 | To the drop in centre |
| (0, 5) 1123 | ~ |
| (0, 5) 1124 | To break it to Dave. |
| (0, 6) 1125 | Back up past the Job Centre I dart |
| (0, 6) 1126 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1127 | Jo |
| (0, 6) 1128 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1129 | Screams Benny who's coming out of the Job Centre all smiles and no teeth |
| (0, 6) 1130 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1131 | Not now Benny I yell back at him |
| (0, 6) 1132 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1133 | But he's chasing me up the hill |
| (0, 6) 1134 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1135 | Fuck sake Benny |
| (0, 6) 1136 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1137 | I got some new gear he says as he's struggling for breath climbing this hill |
| (0, 6) 1138 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1139 | Trainers and hoodies and that. |
| (0, 6) 1140 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1141 | You'll have to come and have a look |
| (0, 6) 1142 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1143 | Yeah Yeah Benny I goes |
| (0, 6) 1144 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1145 | Will do |
| (0, 6) 1146 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1147 | But by this point I'm Usain Bolt |
| (0, 6) 1148 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1149 | Sprinting up the hill |
| (0, 6) 1150 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1151 | As Benny's voice is an echo in the distance |
| (0, 6) 1152 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1153 | I turn left at the corner and smash through the doors of the centre |
| (0, 6) 1154 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1155 | Straight into the hall and I put my bag down on the chair |
| (0, 6) 1156 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1157 | Oh no that's not a good face says Dave |
| (0, 6) 1158 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1159 | The kettles on. I'll grab the biscuits. |
| (0, 6) 1160 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1161 | Well how did it go at the housing office first? |
| (0, 6) 1162 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1163 | Good news I hope |
| (0, 6) 1165 | Shit. |
| (0, 6) 1166 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1167 | Yeah |
| (0, 6) 1168 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1169 | Working Not Begging 31 |
| (0, 6) 1170 | The housing office. |
| (0, 6) 1171 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1172 | It was |
| (0, 6) 1173 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1174 | Well it didn't go as planned |
| (0, 6) 1175 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1176 | What you mean Dave says to me baffled |
| (0, 6) 1177 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1178 | Leicester. |
| (0, 6) 1179 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1180 | They offered me a place in Leicester |
| (0, 6) 1181 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1182 | I mean. |
| (0, 6) 1183 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1184 | I'm not priority apparently. |
| (0, 6) 1185 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1186 | For newport anyway. |
| (0, 6) 1187 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1188 | There were stronger applications this round. |
| (0, 6) 1189 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1190 | I can go to Leicester though. |
| (0, 6) 1191 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1192 | That's a possibility. |
| (0, 6) 1193 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1194 | Lots of cases are being referred to there. |
| (0, 6) 1195 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1196 | Dave's just looking around all confused |
| (0, 6) 1197 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1198 | Leicester he says |
| (0, 6) 1199 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1200 | But thats miles away. |
| (0, 6) 1201 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1202 | Theres got to be a mistake he rages |
| (0, 6) 1203 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1204 | We'll appeal |
| (0, 6) 1205 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1206 | Get it all sorted. |
| (0, 6) 1207 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1208 | He pops my cuppa down next to me. |
| (0, 6) 1209 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1210 | But doesn't make any jokes this time as my hand grabs the handle. |
| (0, 6) 1211 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1212 | What's the point Dave? |
| (0, 6) 1213 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1214 | I mean I got no home to go to |
| (0, 6) 1215 | No business |
| (0, 6) 1216 | No trips to Barry |
| (0, 6) 1217 | What? He buts in with |
| (0, 6) 1218 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1219 | I can take you to Barry |
| (0, 6) 1221 | What's happened with that the business then? |
| (0, 6) 1222 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1223 | I got handed this PSPO thing |
| (0, 6) 1224 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1225 | Dave's shaking his head |
| (0, 6) 1226 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1227 | I got given one of them after the housing office earlier. |
| (0, 6) 1228 | Didn't catch me at the best of times |
| (0, 6) 1229 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1230 | They've got no right Jo |
| (0, 6) 1231 | So where is it |
| (0, 6) 1232 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1233 | Well I ripped it up in this guys face |
| (0, 6) 1234 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1235 | Dave, chuckling away to himself goes what are you like Jo |
| (0, 6) 1236 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1237 | Well apparently I'm a "nuisance" to the public |
| (0, 6) 1238 | Which is complete and utter shit Dave |
| (0, 6) 1239 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1240 | I knows that he says |
| (0, 6) 1241 | You don't bother anyone |
| (0, 6) 1242 | I knows that |
| (0, 6) 1243 | We all know that |
| (0, 6) 1244 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1245 | Exactly I says to him |
| (0, 6) 1246 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1247 | I said to the guy I goes mate I sell flipping loom bands |
| (0, 6) 1248 | Hardly a nuisance |
| (0, 6) 1249 | But he was having none of it |
| (0, 6) 1250 | Tells me I got until 5 to dispose of my business basically. |
| (0, 6) 1251 | So I ripped it up in his face and he stormed off |
| (0, 6) 1252 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1253 | I got no family |
| (0, 6) 1254 | Nowhere here to live |
| (0, 6) 1255 | Nothing. |
| (0, 6) 1256 | Keeping me here now like. |
| (0, 6) 1257 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1258 | Like the other week with that smart red coat from The Salvation and the police questioning me thinking I nicked it. |
| (0, 6) 1259 | Remember that. |
| (0, 6) 1260 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1261 | Can't even sit on the benches me and nan used to and have a cone of vicaras as there's dividers or some shit on there now. |
| (0, 6) 1262 | I can't get a break |
| (0, 6) 1263 | At all. |
| (0, 6) 1264 | There always seems to be something like. |
| (0, 6) 1265 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1266 | If it's not one thing it's another. |
| (0, 6) 1267 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1268 | What IS the point |
| (0, 6) 1269 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1270 | You got me Dave says |
| (0, 6) 1271 | Well us I mean. |
| (0, 6) 1272 | At the centre. |
| (0, 6) 1273 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1274 | Thanks Dave but I can't live here can I |
| (0, 6) 1275 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1276 | Unfortunately not Dave starts |
| (0, 6) 1277 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1278 | Would if I could. You know that |
| (0, 6) 1279 | But we CAN appeal the decision being that its after 56 days and with the PSPO |
| (0, 6) 1280 | we can request evidence to support the claim of you being a nuisance |
| (0, 6) 1281 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1282 | We can do things Jo. |
| (0, 6) 1283 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1284 | I don't fucking care I utter |
| (0, 6) 1285 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1286 | It's just one slap after another |
| (0, 6) 1287 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1288 | Hey what did your nan always say Dave mumbles |
| (0, 6) 1289 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1290 | You get knocked down three times, Then you get back up four. |
| (0, 6) 1291 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1292 | Yeah well its a bit hard when you're constantly knocked down. |
| (0, 6) 1293 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1294 | Constantly invisible. |
| (0, 6) 1295 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1296 | I'm fucking sick of it. |
| (0, 6) 1297 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1298 | I'm as alone as I can be. |
| (0, 6) 1299 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1300 | Cant do it forever Dave. |
| (0, 6) 1301 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1302 | Theres a cliff in front of me. Murky water beneath and no matter how hard I try I keep getting pushed towards that edge. |
| (0, 6) 1303 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1304 | I make a couple of quid a day and for what?! |
| (0, 6) 1305 | To put some bullshit happiness into the world one loom band at a time |
| (0, 6) 1306 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1307 | And I can't even get a roof over my head for my troubles. |
| (0, 6) 1308 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1309 | A home of my own |
| (0, 6) 1310 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1311 | I ain't strong enough no more. |
| (0, 6) 1312 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1313 | He goes you're one of the strongest people I know Jo as he places his hand on my shoulder |
| (0, 6) 1314 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1315 | Yeah. Well I don't feel it I says to him |
| (0, 6) 1316 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1317 | Most of my life I've been here. |
| (0, 6) 1318 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1319 | Newport. |
| (0, 6) 1320 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1321 | My Nans house for the majority. |
| (0, 6) 1322 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1323 | Never left. |
| (0, 6) 1324 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1325 | I've loved Newport and Newports loved me. |
| (0, 6) 1326 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1327 | Forged in steel we are. |
| (0, 6) 1328 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1329 | No matter what comes our way. |
| (0, 6) 1330 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1331 | We can take it. |
| (0, 6) 1332 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1333 | We can give it back. |
| (0, 6) 1334 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1335 | But now it's all fucked. |
| (0, 6) 1336 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1337 | This is fucked. |
| (0, 6) 1338 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1339 | I'm fucked. |
| (0, 6) 1340 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1341 | It's all fucked. |
| (0, 6) 1342 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1343 | And I just wanna get off my fucking face |
| (0, 6) 1345 | I'm sorry. |
| (0, 6) 1346 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1347 | What you apologising for? Dave chuckles |
| (0, 6) 1348 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1349 | I dunno |
| (0, 6) 1350 | Everything |
| (0, 6) 1351 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1352 | I gotta go I says to him and I grab my bag and I'm off. |
| (0, 6) 1353 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1354 | Out the door |
| (0, 6) 1355 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1356 | Dave's chasing my heels |
| (0, 6) 1357 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1358 | Jo please he shouts you shouldn't be on your own this evening |
| (0, 6) 1359 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1360 | Look don't do anything stupid now. |
| (0, 6) 1361 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1362 | Come back. |
| (0, 6) 1363 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1364 | You've got nowhere to go. |
| (0, 6) 1365 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1366 | But I'm already a dot in the distance |
| (0, 6) 1367 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1368 | I've still got one place I yells back at him |
| (0, 6) 1369 | ~ |
| (0, 6) 1370 | One place that'll always be home. |
| (0, 7) 1371 | Trekking up Stow Hill |
| (0, 7) 1372 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1373 | Fragments of the hurricane falling on my face |
| (0, 7) 1374 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1375 | Getting heavier and heavier |
| (0, 7) 1376 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1377 | I just keep walking and walking. |
| (0, 7) 1378 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1379 | Through it all. |
| (0, 7) 1380 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1381 | Just letting my feet move one in front of the other. |
| (0, 7) 1384 | And I'm passing shops and buildings that have been there as long as I can remember. Standing tall and proud. Just with people and tents in the doorways. |
| (0, 7) 1385 | Taking shelter. |
| (0, 7) 1386 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1387 | I walk for what seems like miles and miles. |
| (0, 7) 1388 | Half hour easy |
| (0, 7) 1389 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1390 | Until I rock up to the street thinking that it'll still be boarded up. |
| (0, 7) 1391 | Like loads of the houses there |
| (0, 7) 1392 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1393 | I sneak around the back through the garage door which is still half broken and barely hanging onto its hinges. |
| (0, 7) 1394 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1395 | I move up the garden path but there's lights on and noise coming from the house. |
| (0, 7) 1396 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1397 | I duck down in the hedge and crawl towards the back of the house. |
| (0, 7) 1398 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1399 | Slowly slide up the back wall of the house and peer in the window |
| (0, 7) 1400 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1401 | And I see this woman playing with two little babies in the living room |
| (0, 7) 1402 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1403 | Laughter filling the halls |
| (0, 7) 1404 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1405 | But it's not my laughter. |
| (0, 7) 1406 | The laughter that used to fill those halls. |
| (0, 7) 1407 | It's not my family. |
| (0, 7) 1408 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1409 | And a guy in the kitchen pops his head through the living room door and says something to the woman who I'm presuming is his wife or girlfriend. |
| (0, 7) 1412 | She picks up the babies and takes them through to the kitchen. |
| (0, 7) 1413 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1414 | I slurk around the side of the house like an MI6 stealth agent. |
| (0, 7) 1415 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1416 | Peer in through the side window of the kitchen to see them all sitting around the table. |
| (0, 7) 1417 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1418 | Dad taking the food out of the oven just like /(nan did) |
| (0, 7) 1420 | /And they're all getting ready for tea. |
| (0, 7) 1421 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1422 | I feel my stomach start to tighten. |
| (0, 7) 1423 | The butterflies are back. |
| (0, 7) 1424 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1425 | I gasp for air. |
| (0, 7) 1426 | Big thick breaths |
| (0, 7) 1427 | As I slump against the wall like a drowned rat. |
| (0, 7) 1428 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1429 | And in the corner |
| (0, 7) 1430 | Just underneath the window sill |
| (0, 7) 1431 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1432 | A brick reads |
| (0, 7) 1433 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1434 | Joanne Woz Ere 2K5 |
| (0, 7) 1435 | With BFF Nan |
| (0, 7) 1436 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1437 | These bricks. |
| (0, 7) 1438 | My bricks. |
| (0, 7) 1439 | Are now someone else's. |
| (0, 7) 1440 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1441 | This home |
| (0, 7) 1442 | My home |
| (0, 7) 1443 | Now belongs to someone else. |
| (0, 7) 1444 | ~ |
| (0, 7) 1445 | And that hurts. |
| (0, 7) 1446 | Even more than the damn butterflies. |
| (0, 8) 1447 | I sprint down the back garden like a robber fleeing the scene. |
| (0, 8) 1448 | Out of the street and down past the school onto the dual carriageway to the footbridge that leads back into town. |
| (0, 8) 1451 | I leg it back in, in half the time. |
| (0, 8) 1452 | Like a marathon runner. |
| (0, 8) 1453 | Hurricanes getting worse now |
| (0, 8) 1454 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1455 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1456 | Fighting through the wind and rain that Wales always seems to have until my lungs can barely inflate any more. |
| (0, 8) 1457 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1458 | Down past St Woolos and The Spar and along the hill that leads into town. |
| (0, 8) 1459 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1460 | I get onto High Street and the songs of the drunk echo throughout the buildings as they keep the tents awake. |
| (0, 8) 1461 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1462 | ßWe like to drink with Jordanß |
| (0, 8) 1463 | ßCos Jordan is our mateß |
| (0, 8) 1464 | ßWe like to drink with Jordanß |
| (0, 8) 1465 | ßCos he downs it all in eightß |
| (0, 8) 1466 | ßSevenß |
| (0, 8) 1467 | ßSixß |
| (0, 8) 1468 | ßFiveß |
| (0, 8) 1469 | ßFourß |
| (0, 8) 1470 | ßThreeß |
| (0, 8) 1471 | ßTwoß |
| (0, 8) 1472 | ßOneß |
| (0, 8) 1473 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1474 | ßWheyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyß |
| (0, 8) 1475 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1476 | I slip past a crowd of merry drunks going past Boots, |
| (0, 8) 1477 | Practically wearing next to nothing, the lot of them |
| (0, 8) 1478 | and I stumble across some lad with a group of his friends |
| (0, 8) 1479 | cock out |
| (0, 8) 1480 | swaying over my tent |
| (0, 8) 1481 | just pissing all over it |
| (0, 8) 1482 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1483 | I storm over |
| (0, 8) 1484 | That's my tent mate |
| (0, 8) 1485 | My stuff |
| (0, 8) 1486 | The fuck like |
| (0, 8) 1487 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1488 | The gang start surrounding me |
| (0, 8) 1489 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1490 | Chanting |
| (0, 8) 1491 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1492 | Laughing as they do |
| (0, 8) 1493 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1494 | Like a pack of hyenas |
| (0, 8) 1495 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1496 | Telling me ßchill out loveß |
| (0, 8) 1497 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1498 | ßIt's only a jokeß |
| (0, 8) 1499 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1500 | As they proceed to throwing lager all over me because according to them I smell |
| (0, 8) 1501 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1502 | Get the fuck off my tent you dickhead I scream at him |
| (0, 8) 1503 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1504 | What are you doing?! |
| (0, 8) 1505 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1506 | I try to walk through the crowd to the arsehole who's started jumping on my tent but my legs won't let me and neither will they |
| (0, 8) 1507 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1508 | Like a gang of bouncers forming a wall around my tent. |
| (0, 8) 1509 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1510 | One of the gang says ßIs it really your tent love?ß |
| (0, 8) 1511 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1512 | Eat shit I yell |
| (0, 8) 1513 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1514 | The ginger haired one laughs and says ßIt ain't no use anymore.ß |
| (0, 8) 1515 | ßCouldn't even put a dog in there.ß |
| (0, 8) 1516 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1517 | I try to barge through but a hand grabs my arm and throws me back. |
| (0, 8) 1518 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1519 | One of them rips my JD bag from off my shoulders |
| (0, 8) 1520 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1521 | Give that back now I tells 'em |
| (0, 8) 1522 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1523 | But they laugh some more |
| (0, 8) 1524 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1525 | Videoing me as they do |
| (0, 8) 1526 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1527 | ßSo, What do we have in here?ß says the ginger haired one |
| (0, 8) 1528 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1529 | I'm like none of your fucking business mate |
| (0, 8) 1530 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1531 | He laughs some more |
| (0, 8) 1532 | Says ßtemper temper nowß |
| (0, 8) 1533 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1534 | As he loosens the bag |
| (0, 8) 1535 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1536 | I lunge through kicking and clawing at anything and anyone |
| (0, 8) 1537 | Desperate |
| (0, 8) 1538 | screaming STOP |
| (0, 8) 1539 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1540 | Just give me the coke bottle, That's all. |
| (0, 8) 1541 | Please |
| (0, 8) 1542 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1543 | He yells |
| (0, 8) 1544 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1545 | ßGet off me you cuntß |
| (0, 8) 1546 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1547 | And then - |
| (0, 8) 1548 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1549 | My lip goes all numb |
| (0, 8) 1550 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1551 | I hit the floor |
| (0, 8) 1552 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1553 | Pain and shock surge through my body |
| (0, 8) 1554 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1555 | I hear the foot steps of them running away |
| (0, 8) 1556 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1557 | Echos of their voices in the distance - |
| (0, 8) 1558 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1559 | ßWhat the hell was that forß |
| (0, 8) 1560 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1561 | ßYou idiotß |
| (0, 8) 1562 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1563 | ßRun. C'mon run.ß |
| (0, 8) 1564 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1565 | I look down and see blood streaming through the puddles on the floor |
| (0, 8) 1566 | ~ |
| (0, 8) 1567 | I feel my lip and see blood on my fingers |
| (0, 9) 1569 | And suddenly I'm back in Co-Op, Two and a half years ago after I finished my shift at the post office |
| (0, 9) 1570 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1571 | Picking up dessert for Nan and I on my way home. |
| (0, 9) 1572 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1573 | Apple crumble with clotted cream. |
| (0, 9) 1574 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1575 | To go with her Chapman classic she's making - chicken casserole. |
| (0, 9) 1576 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1577 | Rodas cream though because Nan's a snob. |
| (0, 9) 1578 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1579 | Left me a voicemail |
| (0, 9) 1580 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1581 | She's sorry that things ain't been right and that she didn't tell me about her illness sooner |
| (0, 9) 1582 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1583 | As a peace offering offering she'll make my favourite - Casserole |
| (0, 9) 1584 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1585 | I rock up to the front gate, Co-Op bag in hand and pull my keys out of my back pocket for the front door |
| (0, 9) 1586 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1587 | I open the door to see Nan just laying there on the kitchen floor. |
| (0, 9) 1588 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1589 | Cold |
| (0, 9) 1590 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1591 | Lifeless |
| (0, 9) 1592 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1593 | A patch of blood surrounding her head. |
| (0, 9) 1594 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1595 | Blood staining the floor. |
| (0, 9) 1596 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1597 | I drop the bag |
| (0, 9) 1598 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1599 | Run over to her and hold her in my arms |
| (0, 9) 1600 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1601 | Her head in my chest |
| (0, 9) 1602 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1603 | Blood staining my clothes |
| (0, 9) 1604 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1605 | I say Nan |
| (0, 9) 1606 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1607 | C'mon Nan wake up |
| (0, 9) 1608 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1609 | Please just, wake up. |
| (0, 9) 1610 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1611 | Nothing. |
| (0, 9) 1612 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1613 | Blood staining my hands. |
| (0, 9) 1614 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1615 | I dial 999 and scream the address down the phone |
| (0, 9) 1616 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1617 | Tell them to hurry quick. |
| (0, 9) 1618 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1619 | They tell me to give her CPR but still nothing. |
| (0, 9) 1620 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1621 | She's non responsive. |
| (0, 9) 1622 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1623 | They're on their way. |
| (0, 9) 1624 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1625 | I hold her so tight. |
| (0, 9) 1626 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1627 | Times ticks away for what feels like an eternity. |
| (0, 9) 1628 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1629 | Thoughts racing through my head as she's in my arms |
| (0, 9) 1630 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1631 | How do you live when the one person who gives you strength is gone? |
| (0, 9) 1632 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1633 | Well the simple answer is you don't. |
| (0, 9) 1634 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1635 | The paramedics arrive and ask a ton of questions |
| (0, 9) 1636 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1637 | The police arrive and ask a ton more. |
| (0, 9) 1638 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1639 | But I'm struggling to string a sentence together, let alone a thought. |
| (0, 9) 1640 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1641 | They examine her body and the house. |
| (0, 9) 1642 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1643 | And deduce she must've fell and hit her head on the way down. |
| (0, 9) 1644 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1645 | The paramedic says they're taking her to the Gwent and asks if I want to ride in the ambulance. |
| (0, 9) 1646 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1647 | I simply nod. |
| (0, 9) 1648 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1649 | Walk outside next to Nan on the stretcher |
| (0, 9) 1650 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1651 | Holding her cold hand tight |
| (0, 9) 1652 | ~ |
| (0, 9) 1653 | Edging closer and closer towards the flashing lights of the ambulance at the end of the drive. |
| (0, 10) 1655 | Flashing lights are backing up towards me. |
| (0, 10) 1656 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1657 | I crawl towards the JD bag and check the contents |
| (0, 10) 1658 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1659 | The paramedics help me to the ambulance |
| (0, 10) 1660 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1661 | A community support officer is relaying everything I told her to the paramedic |
| (0, 10) 1662 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1663 | about the attack |
| (0, 10) 1664 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1665 | Look I'm fine I says to them both I can't be here |
| (0, 10) 1666 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1667 | The paramedic looks at me and just says we have to take you in with a head injury Joanne. |
| (0, 10) 1668 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1669 | It's routine nowadays. |
| (0, 10) 1670 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1671 | And besides with weather like this its better to be off the streets anyway. |
| (0, 10) 1672 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1673 | I sit there |
| (0, 10) 1674 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1675 | Clutching my bag. |
| (0, 10) 1676 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1677 | Refusing to give it in as evidence |
| (0, 10) 1678 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1679 | We pull up into the hospital loading bay and they check me in as I go through the waiting area. |
| (0, 10) 1680 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1681 | The usual stares and whispers I'm accustomed to follow me like an STI as I find a seat and plonk my ass down. |
| (0, 10) 1682 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1683 | Next to the coffee machine and vending machine. |
| (0, 10) 1684 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1685 | I go to couple opposite me Spare any change for a coffee? |
| (0, 10) 1686 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1687 | They just shake their head |
| (0, 10) 1688 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1689 | They go really sorry love |
| (0, 10) 1690 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1691 | I move on down and ask a gentlemen with his teenage boy |
| (0, 10) 1692 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1693 | Spare a few pence for a coffee mate? |
| (0, 10) 1694 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1695 | Two secs he says as he produces his wallet from his jean pocket and unzips the coin part. |
| (0, 10) 1696 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1697 | Looks in and takes out two 20p's and hands them to me. |
| (0, 10) 1698 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1699 | Thank you ever so much I say to him with a smile |
| (0, 10) 1700 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1701 | I go to end of the row and just as I go to pass a teenage girl a lady in a white fluorescent coat takes a seat next to her. |
| (0, 10) 1702 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1703 | I look at her and she looks up at me |
| (0, 10) 1704 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1705 | Joanne she mutters all shocked |
| (0, 10) 1706 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1707 | What are you doing here? |
| (0, 10) 1708 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1709 | Sandra? What are you doing here? |
| (0, 10) 1710 | Spare any change for a coffee? I ask |
| (0, 10) 1711 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1712 | Yeah Yeah of course, How much are they she queries |
| (0, 10) 1713 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1714 | I takes a long hard look at the menu on the side. |
| (0, 10) 1715 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1716 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1717 | I'll treat myself. Shit night if I say so myself |
| (0, 10) 1718 | The weather and all |
| (0, 10) 1719 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1720 | She says yeah of course and places the money in the machine. |
| (0, 10) 1721 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1722 | I take my coffee and sit down |
| (0, 10) 1723 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1724 | Go to take my first sip and Gemma the community support officer darts over and says No No No Joanne. |
| (0, 10) 1725 | You can't drink as you have a head injury. |
| (0, 10) 1726 | Concussion and all that. |
| (0, 10) 1727 | You have to wait until you're fully checked over first. |
| (0, 10) 1728 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1729 | You're shitting me? I says to her |
| (0, 10) 1730 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1731 | I'm afraid not she says as she takes the coffee from my hand and goes back to reception. |
| (0, 10) 1732 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1733 | Head injury? Sandra pops up with |
| (0, 10) 1734 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1735 | What's happened? |
| (0, 10) 1736 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1737 | Nothing |
| (0, 10) 1738 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1739 | Just got attacked in town. I tell her. |
| (0, 10) 1740 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1741 | It's no big deal. Just a bunch of drunk arseholes |
| (0, 10) 1742 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1743 | Are you mad? |
| (0, 10) 1744 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1745 | No big deal |
| (0, 10) 1746 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1747 | Are you OK? she softly asks me |
| (0, 10) 1748 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1749 | I nod to her and say yeah I'll be fine |
| (0, 10) 1750 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1751 | What are you down here for then? I quiz her |
| (0, 10) 1752 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1753 | She looks at the young girl next to her then back at me |
| (0, 10) 1754 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1755 | Her eyes start to get all glossy and teary again. |
| (0, 10) 1756 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1757 | It's ok I tell her. You don't have to say. |
| (0, 10) 1758 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1759 | Thanks again for these she says holding the pink loom band on her wrist |
| (0, 10) 1760 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1761 | She loves it pointing to the girl next to her who's wearing one as well. |
| (0, 10) 1762 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1763 | Her nan, my mum. She has the third one. |
| (0, 10) 1764 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1765 | She's through there. |
| (0, 10) 1766 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1767 | We're just waiting for the doctors to come and give us an update. |
| (0, 10) 1768 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1769 | Fell on the stairs she did. |
| (0, 10) 1770 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1771 | I'm sorry I goes |
| (0, 10) 1773 | Your lip Sandra says |
| (0, 10) 1774 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1775 | Looks painful |
| (0, 10) 1776 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1777 | Worse than it is I say |
| (0, 10) 1778 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1779 | A few stitches and I'll be fine |
| (0, 10) 1780 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1781 | Bruises will heal up on their own. |
| (0, 10) 1782 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1783 | But what about the bruises underneath Sandra says |
| (0, 10) 1784 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1785 | The ones we don't see |
| (0, 10) 1786 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1787 | Just takes time I guess. |
| (0, 10) 1789 | Yeah. Time she says |
| (0, 10) 1790 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1791 | The one thing we haven't got enough of. |
| (0, 10) 1792 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1793 | Or can never get back I says to her |
| (0, 10) 1794 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1795 | Yeah she replies Just got to make the most out of the time you have whilst you still can. |
| (0, 10) 1796 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1797 | You never know what tomorrow is going to bring |
| (0, 10) 1799 | It's Cancer she tells me as the tears slowly emerge from her eyelids |
| (0, 10) 1800 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1801 | I'm sorry. |
| (0, 10) 1802 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1803 | I really am I say |
| (0, 10) 1804 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1805 | Don't be silly love you got nothing to be sorry for. |
| (0, 10) 1806 | You got your own problems |
| (0, 10) 1807 | Just affecting this one here she goes as she puts her arm around the young girl for a moment. |
| (0, 10) 1808 | Nanny's girl see. |
| (0, 10) 1809 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1810 | I smile a beaming smile and say I was too. |
| (0, 10) 1811 | A Nanny's girl that is. |
| (0, 10) 1812 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1813 | The young girl looks at me and smiles then her focus is straight back on the hospital ward door to see if the doctor emerges with more news. |
| (0, 10) 1814 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1815 | It'll be ok. |
| (0, 10) 1816 | I promise |
| (0, 10) 1817 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1818 | You have to live for today Sandra says because tomorrows never promised |
| (0, 10) 1819 | I learnt that now more than ever |
| (0, 10) 1820 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1821 | Yeah. You're right I tell her |
| (0, 10) 1822 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1823 | And same to you. |
| (0, 10) 1824 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1825 | It's the memories that keep someone alive. |
| (0, 10) 1826 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1827 | Even after they're gone. |
| (0, 10) 1828 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1829 | The way you're connected and remain together regardless. |
| (0, 10) 1830 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1831 | Through those loom bands for example. |
| (0, 10) 1832 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1833 | Each memory is intertwined. |
| (0, 10) 1834 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1835 | Forever. |
| (0, 10) 1836 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1837 | You're a lovely soul d'you know that, Sandra says, as we both stare into the vending machine at the rows of chocolate bars and crisps the Gwent have to offer. |
| (0, 10) 1838 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1839 | She looks at the time |
| (0, 10) 1840 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1841 | Says, She's lucky to have you. Your nan. |
| (0, 10) 1842 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1843 | I say we didn't have enough time together. |
| (0, 10) 1844 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1845 | Unfortunately |
| (0, 10) 1846 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1847 | Passed about 2 years ago now. |
| (0, 10) 1848 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1849 | I'm sorry about that she tells me. |
| (0, 10) 1850 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1851 | I bet she would've been proud. |
| (0, 10) 1852 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1853 | You're a very kind spirit. |
| (0, 10) 1854 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1855 | I say she had a condition |
| (0, 10) 1856 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1857 | That restricted the flow of oxygen out of the heart |
| (0, 10) 1858 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1859 | Made it beat irregularly which caused one of her dizzy spells. |
| (0, 10) 1860 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1861 | She had a severe lack of oxygen causing a mini stroke and she fell back and hit her head on the kitchen table. |
| (0, 10) 1862 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1863 | I never did say goodbye though. |
| (0, 10) 1864 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1865 | That's what kills me the most. |
| (0, 10) 1866 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1867 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1868 | And we sit there, together. |
| (0, 10) 1869 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1870 | And we both get it. |
| (0, 10) 1871 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1872 | Where we're coming from. |
| (0, 10) 1873 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1874 | Time isn't promised |
| (0, 10) 1875 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1876 | And as I stare up at the giant clock on the wall watching the seconds pass by in our silence. |
| (0, 10) 1877 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1878 | It's nice to be reminded of that. |
| (0, 10) 1879 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1880 | To live for today. |
| (0, 10) 1881 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1882 | Make decisions for today. |
| (0, 10) 1883 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1884 | Get help for today. |
| (0, 10) 1885 | ~ |
| (0, 10) 1886 | Always. |
| (0, 11) 1887 | We get comfortable with each other's silence and through the waiting room wades in Dave. |
| (0, 11) 1888 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1889 | As he's the only point of contact I have. |
| (0, 11) 1890 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1891 | He struts right up to me. |
| (0, 11) 1892 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1893 | Says I've tried ringing you all evening. |
| (0, 11) 1894 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1895 | I answer with Sorry. Told them not to bother you as its late but they insisted. |
| (0, 11) 1896 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1897 | Procedure and that |
| (0, 11) 1898 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1899 | Don't be soft he says |
| (0, 11) 1900 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1901 | You can always count on me |
| (0, 11) 1902 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1903 | I was straight here. |
| (0, 11) 1904 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1905 | Just had to find somewhere to park. |
| (0, 11) 1906 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1907 | It's a nightmare. |
| (0, 11) 1908 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1909 | Sandra chirps in with Tell me about it |
| (0, 11) 1910 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1911 | They introduce themselves and have a quick chat. |
| (0, 11) 1912 | Get on like a house on fire, which is nice. |
| (0, 11) 1913 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1914 | Did you manage to see their faces and give a full statement? He asks |
| (0, 11) 1915 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1916 | Yeah I saw most of them and I've given a statement |
| (0, 11) 1917 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1918 | I points to the support officer at reception and the other one at the end of the row. |
| (0, 11) 1919 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1920 | He looks at me relieved |
| (0, 11) 1921 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1922 | Joanne Chapman calls a nurse |
| (0, 11) 1923 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1924 | I grab my things and as I go to leave Sandra pops up from her chair and gives me a hug |
| (0, 11) 1925 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1926 | Any chance you have three spare pink bands? just for extras in case |
| (0, 11) 1927 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1928 | I nod |
| (0, 11) 1929 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1930 | Get the carrier bag out and hand it to her |
| (0, 11) 1931 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1932 | She looks at me baffled |
| (0, 11) 1933 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1934 | I say have them |
| (0, 11) 1935 | They're yours |
| (0, 11) 1936 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1937 | Newport still needs those little rays of sunshine. |
| (0, 11) 1938 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1939 | Happiness, one loom band at a time. |
| (0, 11) 1940 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1941 | And I couldn't think of anyone better to carry that on |
| (0, 11) 1942 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1943 | Sandra takes them |
| (0, 11) 1944 | smiles the warmest of smiles |
| (0, 11) 1945 | and hugs me |
| (0, 11) 1946 | popping a £20 note in my pocket as she does |
| (0, 11) 1947 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1948 | I'm not taking no for an answer |
| (0, 11) 1949 | It's been a pleasure to meet you Jo |
| (0, 11) 1950 | Don't be a stranger |
| (0, 11) 1951 | Stay safe ok. |
| (0, 11) 1952 | ~ |
| (0, 11) 1953 | And you I goes. |
| (0, 11) 1954 | Take care of each other |
| (0, 11) 1955 | And keep the memories alive |
| (0, 12) 1956 | I'm in the cubicle |
| (0, 12) 1957 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1958 | Sheet pulled around |
| (0, 12) 1959 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1960 | Daves on the outside standing guard |
| (0, 12) 1961 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1962 | Nurse checks me over thoroughly |
| (0, 12) 1963 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1964 | No Pain |
| (0, 12) 1965 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1966 | No Nausea |
| (0, 12) 1967 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1968 | But hours pass and by the time we've gone back and forth the x ray, the doctors and she finishes stitching up my lip Sunrise is on the horizon |
| (0, 12) 1969 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1970 | Finally the doctor says you're good to go |
| (0, 12) 1971 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1972 | And I'm out of there |
| (0, 12) 1973 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1974 | To Daves car |
| (0, 12) 1975 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1976 | A gold Ford escort |
| (0, 12) 1977 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1978 | The weathers eased off as we jump in and sit there for a second |
| (0, 12) 1979 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1980 | Dave, |
| (0, 12) 1981 | Can you drop me off by the leisure centre I ask him |
| (0, 12) 1982 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1983 | No, you're coming back to the centre and then we're going to figure this all out he rambles |
| (0, 12) 1984 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1985 | Please |
| (0, 12) 1986 | I got something I need to do I say to him |
| (0, 12) 1987 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1988 | OK fine he mumbles but then you're coming back to the centre |
| (0, 12) 1989 | Can kip on the sofa and I'm not taking no for an answer. |
| (0, 12) 1990 | Regardless of my bosses. |
| (0, 12) 1991 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1992 | You leave them to me |
| (0, 12) 1994 | Alri(ght) fine I goes to him |
| (0, 12) 1995 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1996 | Working Not Begging 52 |
| (0, 12) 1997 | Dave just looks at me through his Austin Powers glasses with his big brown eyes |
| (0, 12) 1998 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 1999 | Don't look at me like that I tell him |
| (0, 12) 2001 | He turns the key |
| (0, 12) 2002 | ~ |
| (0, 12) 2003 | Starts the engine and off we go. |
| (0, 13) 2004 | Past the police station towards George Street Bridge and left towards the Leisure centre. |
| (0, 13) 2005 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2006 | He pulls the car up beside the centre and I hop out |
| (0, 13) 2007 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2008 | I'll wait by here for you he says |
| (0, 13) 2009 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2010 | I fly into Sainsburys |
| (0, 13) 2011 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2012 | Security guard follows me round like a fly on shit. |
| (0, 13) 2013 | But I stride straight over to the alcohol cabinet and grabs a four pack of red stripe. |
| (0, 13) 2014 | Over to the till and I shove my hand in my pocket to pull out the twenty that Sandra gave me and I chucks it at the checkout girl who gives me a stinking look and then gives me my change. |
| (0, 13) 2015 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2016 | I rip one can off and put the three in my JD bag |
| (0, 13) 2018 | Two thirds gone. |
| (0, 13) 2019 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2020 | I leave the store much to the relief of the employees. |
| (0, 13) 2021 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2022 | Dart across the road and hop onto the white footbridge. |
| (0, 13) 2023 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2024 | It's empty |
| (0, 13) 2027 | You know you said you'd never leave me!? |
| (0, 13) 2028 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2029 | And I believed you |
| (0, 13) 2030 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2031 | Said you'd always be with me! |
| (0, 13) 2032 | But you're not. |
| (0, 13) 2033 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2034 | You left me. |
| (0, 13) 2035 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2036 | And I miss you so much. |
| (0, 13) 2037 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2038 | And I hate you so much for leaving. |
| (0, 13) 2039 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2040 | I never got the chance to say thank you |
| (0, 13) 2041 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2042 | For everything. |
| (0, 13) 2043 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2044 | You know. |
| (0, 13) 2045 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2046 | Not just taking me in and raising me. |
| (0, 13) 2047 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2048 | But for putting up with me. |
| (0, 13) 2049 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2050 | All the tantrums and triumphs. |
| (0, 13) 2051 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2052 | Everything. |
| (0, 13) 2053 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2054 | For loving me endlessly and making me your entire world. |
| (0, 13) 2055 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2056 | It was all the times I could come to you with a problem or a dilemma. |
| (0, 13) 2057 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2058 | And you wouldn't rest until that problem or whatever was sorted. |
| (0, 13) 2059 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2060 | All the times you'd take me strawberry picking and let me eat the strawberries on the way around. |
| (0, 13) 2061 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2062 | All the trips to Barry Island |
| (0, 13) 2063 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2064 | All the 2p's and prizes |
| (0, 13) 2065 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2066 | All the sing-alongs to Gabrielle |
| (0, 13) 2068 | You were right |
| (0, 13) 2069 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2070 | When you told me that is precious |
| (0, 13) 2071 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2072 | I hate that we were on borrowed time. |
| (0, 13) 2073 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2074 | And there's nothing worst than running on borrowed time. |
| (0, 13) 2075 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2076 | Time that is going to run out like that {snaps her fingers} |
| (0, 13) 2077 | I didn't have no money for an urn |
| (0, 13) 2078 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2079 | They placed you in a plastic jar at first but it was a bit chunky when I was in emergency accommodation so I had to place you in this. |
| (0, 13) 2080 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2081 | Hope that's ok. |
| (0, 13) 2083 | Thank you for being the best Mother |
| (0, 13) 2084 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2085 | Best Nanna |
| (0, 13) 2086 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2087 | Best friend |
| (0, 13) 2088 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2089 | A girl could ask for. |
| (0, 13) 2090 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2091 | Thank you for teaching me to remain kind hearted and compassionate |
| (0, 13) 2092 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2093 | Even in the darkest of times. |
| (0, 13) 2094 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2095 | And to help others as best I can. |
| (0, 13) 2096 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2097 | Do you believe in parallels? |
| (0, 13) 2098 | Parallel worlds, parallel lives, parallel us. |
| (0, 13) 2099 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2100 | Just out there beyond the stars, beyond the sun is another me so that means that there is another you. |
| (0, 13) 2101 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2102 | Somewhere. |
| (0, 13) 2103 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2104 | In a universe of infinite possibilities I know you're waiting. |
| (0, 13) 2105 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2106 | For me. |
| (0, 13) 2107 | ~ |
| (0, 13) 2108 | And I Promise |
| (0, 13) 2110 | I'll see you soon |
| (0, 13) 2214 | Sunshine through my window |
| (0, 13) 2215 | That's what you are |
| (0, 13) 2216 | My shining star |